Went to college for my admissions. Had not applied for that particular college.I cleared the cutoff so was trying my luck. I was standing in a line. Saw this guy. I was attracted to him in a very weird kind of way. Maybe that is what a crush is. But he was not good looking or anything. I don't know what attracted me to him. I got through that college. The first day in college, I was standing pretty lost not knowing what to do. He was there too. I don't remember names and faces. His face I remembered. He was in my class. Me being me, I kept my distance. Trying not to care. I had a boy friend then. I did not want anything to happen between us. He was my secret "crush".
Slowly we become friends. I started liking him more. I have seen him look at me in a way that meant something. I thought there was something. Final year, during exams I told him that I like him over text. He said he was "confused". He said we are better of as friends. "Long and lasting friendship".That is what he called us. It was not awkward. While leaving he gave me a piece of music. A music box. I have gave him love in times of cholera. the book started with the line "the smell of bitter almond always reminded him of unrequited love...".
He is in a far away land somewhere. When we meet next, I have no idea.One day, before leaving he told me that I was the closest he was ever to liking someone.
Its weird how this ended. There was nothing to start in beginning. for me its a incomplete story. A story, which never started. Or maybe a story with a perfect end. When I think of him, I smile. I smile at the fact that we met and we became friends. I dont know if we will ever meet again. Are we even going to stay in touch. but when i think of college, I will think of him. I will feel happy. I am not saying I was in love with him. maybe maybe not. But whatever I had for him, It was nice.
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